and now im locked in a room
an no hope here, that blooms.
only thoughts bout myself,
and that person whos there.

i can see the door,
but its not like it matters
i kno bout a key, on the floor by the ladder.

but nobody knows that, im here on my own.
in this empty room, where everything lacks,
but its almost full.

nobody enters cause nobady can
its not like i want them to pass
so the doors locked for a reason
i just dont want visitors.
who are not allowed to get in my head
and affect all my thoughts.

im locked in a room where i surrender
to what i belive.
and i dont let others affect how i think.
cause everything's ordered
right on its place.

this room lacks of windows.
right now, so close minded.
stubborn and blinded.
this room is the best for my sake.
and when you meet me again
dont forget to say hi
to the man who isn't there.

The Blogger

=]

Fuck it all,
fuck this world,
fuck everything that you stand for,
don't belong,
don't exist,
don't give a shit,
don't ever judge me.

as simple as that :)
The Blogger.

Eyeless

everytime i think about it, it haunts my head, its just like the song says:

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

the more i tried, the worst it got. every single person was telling her: "you should dump him", "he's not worth it".

am i that bad?
i guess i have to be horrible, for my own friends to tell her that, i must suck as a boyfriend, or at least they were not my friends.

but the thing is, now im scared.
what if i am really all they said?
now that im about to get in a relationship, i dont want to hurt her.
what do i need to improve? what do i need to change?
cuz i can't really see it for myself?
am i that blind?